Have you ever had one of those days where you can't even stand to be around yourself? Take the fact that I've quit smoking and I guess the time change and I have just been AWFUL. Yesterday when I woke up I knew if didn't have a spanking someone was going to be hurt!! Well the evening came and went and no spanking and it just made matters worse.
Well today I woke up, I had the house all to myself with hubby at work and the kids at school. I had so much to do because I just finished my week of night shifts. Hubby usually does ALL the laundry, that is just what he does, he always has. Well over the last couple of weeks he has been working a lot of overtime and hasn't had a chance to do it. We were out of towels, we were both out of clean uniforms, and the kids only have 1 more pair of jeans clean. Nobody had done dishes in the last couple of days and apparently I am the only one in the house who knows how to throw anything away. Anyway I got up and looked around and just went and got back in the bed and stayed there all day long.
This evening, my sister came by and got my kids for a couple of hours. Nice surprise huh? Well I called hubby and told him the kids were going to be gone for a couple of hours and I asked him how long before he would be home. He said he would probably be here in about 20 minutes. I ran in the bathroom and took a quick shower and waited for him to come home. After he got home he went straight to the computer and started looking at cars for sale. Now if we needed a car it would be different but he likes to just look at cars for sale. It drives me crazy! I had so much more in mind that we could be doing and there he was on the freaking computer.
I am not going to tell him how much I need a spanking, what if he isn't in the mood and says no. It just not happening and him saying no are two completely different things. I can't think of a time that he has said NO but that is a fear that I have. What if? So I get up to walk in the kitchen to get a drink and he grabs me by the arm and says "what's with the attitude? You have been drifting for a couple of days now." So yea I have but who wants to admit that? I told him I didn't have an attitude, I am just all BLAH! He said that he had just the fix for that, walked in the bedroom opened the dresser drawer and got the spanking belt. The reason I call it the spanking belt is because there is nothing else it could be used for. The buckle broke off of it about a month ago and he can't wear it anymore. When I found out the buckle broke off of that belt, I almost sent out invitation and threw a party. That thing has more power than any belt I have ever experienced. Does he throw it away? No, because as I stated earlier I am the only person here who throws stuff away.
Anyway, so I got my spanking that was long overdue and I feel all leveled out. Why is that? Seriously, I have read blog after blog trying to find out why it is that I can be in an awful mood for days and a few carefully place smacks on the butt can change my whole attitude almost immediately.
After we were done with all our activities I told him that the belt really needed to be thrown away. He informed me that it better not. I asked him what he wanted to hold onto it for, it was broken and he could never wear it again. He said "it has a function and is useful, you have an attitude and I can take this belt and after a couple of minutes of applying it to your ass you don't have an attitude anymore. Case closed the belt stays!" Apparently he has no problem with me needing a good ole fashion butt whoopin every now and then so why should I?
There is my update for the week. And by the way I am still SMOKE FREE!!!!!!!! Hooray for Rebekah!! 10 days and counting.
Rebekah, I've wondered the same thing . . . how can a few well-placed smacks on the butt make everything better for me? All I can figure is that there's probably a biological reason . . . it's all those nerves at the base of the spine getting reset. We had an OT (occupational therapist) explain to us once that when a person was falling apart emotionally, that it was probably because all the messages from the nerves were getting piled up in a traffic jam in the spine, and that a few thumps to the base of it would jar things loose. She told us to have the upset person back up to a low table and firmly thump his/her bottom down onto it a few times. And it works!!! It actually calms the upset person instantly, stopping any downward spiral like magic . . . maybe spanking works along the same lines?
ReplyDeleteAll I know is that it works for me!
~Erin
Rebekah,
ReplyDeleteWow, that last commenter, Erin, just threw me for a loop! A better explanation I've never seen! I knew there had to be a better reason for this than just a bunch of crazy, lunatic masochistic broads with a daddy complex. I think our bodies are telling us exactly what we need and our minds create a solution. I've been told that when we have unexplained food cravings, it's our bodies sending a signal to our brains that we are in need of certain nutrients... serotonin for instance...and we'll suddenly know that we desire chocolate because we subconsciously remember it's effects on us. What could be more simple? And how very clever of God to plant these little survival mechanisms in us without our even being aware.
Ten days smoke free without a major blow up or melt down? I am in awe, and so very jealous!
SugarAnne
CONGRATULATIONS on the smoking! You are making incredible progress. I am just as amazed as you as to how it all works, TTWD, but it does! I think that is why JJ has kept at it, because my ability to go from a total mess to calm and sweet is just an implement away.
ReplyDeleteSounds like he's picking up on the clues, and I will come more naturally over time. Hang in there!
Hugs,
Kady
Rebekah, I had to come here and tell you that I feel so badly that a nasty commenter has kept you away from blogging. (I read you comments in several places) I'm glad you are commenting again, but I'll bet that you have lots of good things to say here on your blog. Why let someone else prevent you? Don't give them that kind of power. Make sure you set up your comments to require approval before they are posted. This might help.
ReplyDeleteThere are many nice people here in Blogland who will leave you nice comments and give you support. Seek out those who you'd like to blog with and leave them comments on their posts, and they will find there way to you. Delete those comments that are hurtful, we all get them. There are bad apples in every barrel. I do hope you'll give it a try again.
BTW, How's it going with quitting cigarettes?
I can't promise that no one will hurt your feelings in blogland, but you will develop a tougher skin. Just seek the support that you need. I'm here to talk, if you need me. Elysia
Thanks for stopping by Elysia! I have tried and tried to comment on your blog but is says I have to sign into wordpress and I do not have a wordpress account. I am going to start blogging again soon.
ReplyDeletewhy does the husband (my husband at least) not take the hint when we call them and tell them the kids are gone for a couple of hours, and to hurry home. Obviously we called them because we wanted their attention. If I wanted to enjoy the peace and quiet, I wouldn't have bothered to call.
ReplyDeleteCongratulations on no smoking. It will get better